I needed to get my groove back.
Tonight I was invited to see 'Whitney' a hologram show at Harrah's Las Vegas. I ended my dancing career on this stage in 2003. I hadn't been back. I had a hard time facing the showroom where I ended my career on a night in 2003. My heart I thought would never be the same. It really wasn't, until I went into the showroom tonight. I was in so much pain in 2003, it devastated my soul. But, I came back. And you know what? The Maitre D Michael was there and a cocktail waitress I knew. We hugged like it was 19 years ago. I still love them as they love me.
The showroom is still gorgeous and the massive chandeliers are still there. The stage curtains are there. They left the VIP booths. I can still see myself on the floor of the theater stretching getting ready for an 8 hour day of grueling rehearsals. And mind you, I worked as a cocktail waitress in evenings for Clint Holmes. So, basically I lived there. I also lived at Budget Suites on Tropicana and Arville and drove a shit car. I did whatever I could to be in that showroom. It was all passion. I love Harrah's, still do. I know its owned by Caesars, but to me its still a small corporate company who loved their employees. When Harrah's found out I was going to be in the show, they gave me nothing but praise. they were happy for me. I never made any money. It wasn't about that. I made less as a dancer than a cocktail waitress.
Las Vegas. I suppose I'm still in the bubble of how things used to be. But, I know people were treated differently. Today? I have no words. Its unfortunate Im unable to finish my book. Its no excuse. Its hard to be happy and drive positivity when the city gives nothing back.
